As many of you might know, I’ve decided to take a position at my high school as Director of Communications. This decision isn’t something that just came to me or something that I ever thought I would do. It took me a lot of soul searching and questioning myself for me to come to this conclusion.
I will be honest; I wasn’t sure how I would cope with being back in a high school environment…Especially MY high school environment.
High school was a rough time for me. I was away from my family for the first time (Boarding school) and I was still wrestling to come to terms with my sexuality. Looking back I can say that I was terrified all the time to say the least. For such a long time, this place has been a symbol of that terror and a place where I felt like I didn’t belong. It is because of that reason that I decided I should come back here and face my demons.
In order for me to continue to grow and discover myself, I have to face my fears head on and dismantle them one after another.
I can honestly say that I am very glad and proud of myself for doing so. Not only has this move, new position and new puppy been really good for me. It has the potential to be good for those around me as well as my students. I can feel myself starting to let go of so much of the baggage that I have been carrying around with me for so long. I feel free….
Yes, I know this is cheesy, but it’s true. I fee like I am getting to know the real me. I’m no longer insecure about many of the things just a month ago would bother me so much. It’s crazy
My reflection after all this is that I have to keep trying to push myself outside of my comfort zone and to break the mold that I have placed myself.
One of the taglines that the school is not focusing on is “risk becoming your best.”
I think I may just be doing that. I will do everything within my power to risk becoming the best person that I can be.
Blaah I’m just babbling now hahah
Until Next time!
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